When someone you love kisses you in the dark
–
betrayal’s hurt
There is a scripture that we read in the Bible that talks about Jesus
understanding and personally knowing everything that we are tempted
with. He knows every pain and every temptation that you and I can
possibly have for He took on flesh and experienced pain personally.
Included in this is the very severe pain of
having those you have loved and trusted betray you.
Hebrews 4:14-16 (KJV)14 Seeing then that we have a great high priest,
that is passed into the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast
our profession. 15 For we have not an high priest which cannot be
touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points
tempted like as we are, yet without sin. 16 Let us therefore come
boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find
grace to help in time of need.
Betrayal is an ugly word, and it takes many
different forms. But the root of all of its forms is having
someone or something that you have counted on
and have put an
emotional
and intellectual investment in, turning on you and
disregarding both what is right and you and your feelings personally.
Betrayal
knows
that it is
hurting you,
and knows that it has been trusted not to do so.
It does not matter how much you have trusted
it, a Betrayal is a selfish thing.
I am not
speaking of the kind of little betrayals when people mess up on you and
really did not plan it. I am talking about someone giving into a human
weakness and maybe hurting your feelings when they did not really plan
to do it.
I hope that we
have enough of the love of God and grace in our lives that we are not so
easily offended
when someone does that to us, because we are prone to do it to others
ourselves sometimes (though if we are walking in the Spirit we certainly
to not make a pattern or habit of it). But
the love of God in our lives will keep us from being offended at those
things and let us let them just pass:
1 Corinthians 13:5-7
(KJV) “ 5 Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not
easily provoked, thinketh no evil; 6 Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but
rejoiceth in the truth; 7 Beareth all things, believeth all things,
hopeth all things, endureth all things. “
But I am speaking of the kind of betrayal when the person that we
have trusted and loved and invested our
energies and love and lives into turns on us and deliberately
betrays us knowingly.
Judas knew what he was doing and it did not just come on him in a moment
of human weakness. This man had walked in the glory of God and in the
presence of Jesus and decided to betray him.
Matthew 26:14-16 (KJV)14 Then one of the twelve, called Judas Iscariot,
went unto the chief priests, 15 And said unto them, What will ye give
me, and I will deliver him unto you? And they covenanted with him for
thirty pieces of silver. 16 And from that time he sought opportunity
to betray him.
See, Jesus knew ahead of time that Judas was
going to betray Him. Matthew
26:21-25 (KJV) “ 21 And as they did eat, he said, Verily I say unto you,
that one of you shall betray me. 22 And they were exceeding sorrowful,
and began every one of them to say unto him, Lord, is it I? 23 And he
answered and said, He that dippeth his hand with me in the dish, the
same shall betray me. 24 The Son of man goeth as it is written of
him: but woe unto that man by whom the Son of man is betrayed! it had
been good for that man if he had not been born. 25 Then Judas, which
betrayed him, answered and said, Master, is it I? He said unto him, Thou
hast said. “
What you see happening in this Passover Seder or Meal is that Jesus is
given Judas the place of honor as dipping into the dish, and he put him
in the place of honor. Jesus knew by the Holy Spirit that this trusted
disciple who according to Acts 1, had an active part of the ministry of
the Kingdom had already determined in his heart to betray Him.
Jesus had put as much of an investment of love
and care and ministry into Judas as he had any of the others.
Granted that James, and John, and Peter were the inner group who had
proven themselves more faithful and able to handle deeper things,
but
Jesus had given teaching and love and care to all of the 12.
Acts 1:16-18 (KJV) “ 16 Men and brethren, this scripture must needs have
been fulfilled, which the Holy Ghost by the mouth of David spake before
concerning Judas, which was guide to them that took Jesus. 17 For he
was numbered with us, and had obtained part of this ministry. 18 Now
this man purchased a field with the reward of iniquity; and falling
headlong, he burst asunder in the midst, and all his bowels gushed out.
“
Some try to act like Judas was never a part of the Kingdom to begin
with, but the gospels just do not bear that out and neither does this
verse in Acts. He had obtained a part of this same ministry of Jesus
and the Apostles. He had a part of it… he was not a tare that was never
a part, but he has the sad distinction of
being a part and becoming an apostate.
You see early on that he has the same power of God moving through him to
preach and to cast out demons and heal the sick as the others.
He is one of them. But toward the
end of Jesus’ earthly ministry, you see some indications that greed is
taking him as he makes criticisms over money and becomes the Apostles’
Treasurer. But he was one of them, and not
just a pretender. This made the betrayal all that more painful
and you can hear it in Peter’s speech to the others here in Acts.
Don’t you think when Jesus would go to
Gethsemane to pray for his coming ordeal that the fact that Judas was
going to lead the Temple Guard to him and betray him would weigh on his
mind to at least some degree as well? Don’t you think that the
ordeal that Jesus was going to take on the sins of the entire human race
throughout time and have to bear the painful death of that and all that
the crucifixion would bring was hard enough without knowing that the sin
of betrayal was about to be committed against Him on a real personal
level as well?
I believe that
Judas really hurt Jesus. But the way that Jesus dealt with it is a good guide to us who are
“Christians” and would want to be Christlike.
Remember that Jesus had escaped his enemies’ traps time and time again
even by the use of supernatural power by walking in the midst of them
while they were trying to stone him and they could not find him. It was
not his time yet.
But now, he knew that his time was coming which is why he was being so
bold in preparing his disciples. Part of that preparation was the
revelation that one of them was going to betray him.
He is called the son of perdition. God knew that he would betray Jesus
from the foundation of the world. God is in the future right now and
already knows what we will do, and yet gives us the will to decide to
choose. Love is a choice, and God wants us to love Him for real. Judas
had a choice, and even when Jesus was telling them about betrayal and
warning them, Judas still had a choice.
Was it greed? Was it as some believe that Judas wanted to force Jesus
into showing His power and overtaking the Romans and the corrupt
Sanhedrin Court and Priesthood? Did he believe that forcing Jesus
into this kind of dilemma would force him to show himself as the
Real Messiah to the people and at the same time make some money on
the side? Probably, but God only knows now for sure.
Satan literally took control of Judas, but that can only occur when
someone has given themselves over the Devil through some iniquity
first. Was it a lust for power or greed or something else? All we know
is that Jesus knew about it and showed Judas double honor before and
during the act.
1.
Jesus gave him the place of honor at the Passover Seder.
2.
Jesus gave him the honor of the meal with the dipping of the
bread.
3.
Judas had already been to the priests and had already
betrayed him in his heart.
4.
Jesus would tell him to go do what he was going to do
quickly.
5.
Judas would after the night of agonizing prayer in the
garden, betray Jesus with a kiss.
6.
Jesus would call him, friend.
Some as Sanballat to Nehemiah are obviously going to betray you. He
invited Nehemiah down to the Valley of Ono for a conference, but was
going to lay a trap for him there. Be careful when your enemies
suddenly invite you to a night or private meeting.
But Judas was not a Sanballat. He was supposed to be a friend and
minister. The betrayals that hurt are the ones who come from the ones
that you have supported the most yourself.
According to Exodus 21, 30 pieces of
silver was the going rate of a slave. I find that interesting.
This is not a lot of money, but it does correspond to the amount that a
slave is worth. Judas was literally selling himself to the Devil and
enslaving himself in this action. He was going to betray the Son of God
for something around $75 or so.
Just before this, the woman had taken the anointment of the alabaster
box and anointed Jesus. This had enraged Judas, which is interesting
considering that his price to sell out the Son of God was worth much
less than this.
I think that
the final hurt in this was that he was betrayed by a kiss.
He acted like he loved the Lord, but his heart had been corrupted and he
was willing to betray this one who have given him so much love and
care. He would betray him with a kiss.
HOW MANY TIMES HAS SOMEONE PRETENDED TO LOVE
YOU, BUT TURNED AND DELIBERATELY HURT YOU? Have you ever been
betrayed? Have you ever had someone that you helped and cared for and
loved, and they said that they loved you… and yet later, they turned on
you and maybe walked away or turned to another or maybe literally tried
to hurt you?
Matthew 26:47-50 (KJV) “ 47 And while he yet spake, lo, Judas, one of
the twelve, came, and with him a great multitude with swords and staves,
from the chief priests and elders of the people. 48 Now he that
betrayed him gave them a sign, saying, Whomsoever I shall kiss, that
same is he: hold him fast. 49 And forthwith he came to Jesus, and
said, Hail, master; and kissed him. 50 And Jesus said unto him,
Friend, wherefore art thou come? Then came they, and laid hands on
Jesus, and took him. “
Jesus
knows what this feels like. He knows the hurting of your heart! He
knows what it is to have the one that you loved so much turn on you and
sell you out to your very enemies!
And if you call on the name of Jesus, this Great High Priest who is
making intercession for you and for me will take this hurt to God the
Father and help bring healing into your own life!
He suffered this so that He could heal us!
He suffered the cross so that we could cast our own cares upon Him!
He wants us to be healed and be freed! He wants
to pick up the broken pieces and put them back together so that you are
stronger afterward than you were before the betrayal.
Psalms 147:3 (KJV) He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their
wounds.
Psalms 34:17-19 (KJV)17 The righteous cry, and the LORD heareth, and
delivereth them out of all their troubles. 18 The LORD is nigh unto
them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite
spirit. 19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the LORD
delivereth him out of them all.
Luke 4:18 (KJV) The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath
anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal
the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering
of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised,
Isaiah 57:15 (KJV) For thus saith the high and lofty One that inhabiteth
eternity, whose name is Holy; I dwell in the high and holy place, with
him also that is of a contrite and humble spirit, to revive the spirit
of the humble, and to revive the heart of the contrite ones.
Is your heart broken? Has it been betrayed? Have you been depleted by
giving and giving and giving, and then having the very one that you have
given to betray you and deliberately wound you?
Let the Spirit of the Lord heal you! Let Jesus help you… cast your
cares upon Him for He cares for you and let Him heal your broken heart!
1 Peter 5:7 (KJV) Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for
you.
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